stormtraitor | psl; space polyamory!

They had been tasked with traveling to the other side of the galaxy to collect supplies that would then be delivered to some of their more isolated allies. It was an easy trip all things considered. There was little chance of First Order face-offs or any other antagonistic parties. And yet, for some reason, Finn felt tenser than he had any right to be.

It had been a while since he'd traveled alone with Rey and Poe. He was happy, of course, to spend time with the two of them, but ever since he had come to terms with his feelings for them, he had found it difficult to act normal around them. In the close quarters of the Falcon, there were plenty of accidental touches and bumping into someone's personal space. Once he'd felt the tickle of some of Rey's loose hair as they passed by each other. Another time he and Poe had reached for the same control and their hands had rested together for a moment. Every time Finn laughed it off, attempting to appear like his usual self, but inside he was panicking. What if they figured him out? When if they realized how he felt and wanted nothing to do with him. Rey and Poe were two of his closest friends and he didn't want to jeopardize that.

So he kept any romantic thoughts to himself, trying to persuade himself that he was content with how things were.

At the moment, he was trying to focus on one of the holos in the main deck, but quite honestly, he wouldn't have been able to tell anyone what he was watching. His mind kept wandering to thoughts of Rey and Poe.

He sighed and slumped deeper into his seat, resting his head back. Pathetic. He was truly pathetic.

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Finn puffed out a little laugh, mostly out of relief. Somehow, miraculously, they've all mostly ended up on the same page. It was still scary to consider, but it gave him hope to see the interest plain on the other's faces. Things were going to change from there on out, but he felt like if he was with Rey and Poe that they could make it.

When it came to relationships, Finn had no doubt that Poe was probably leagues ahead of where he and Rey were. But Finn knew attraction, knew that he had it for both Poe and Ray. Mostly, he just didn't know what to do with it. He hadn't known love before, but he felt like he knew it now.

"I want to be there for you both. In every possible way."

He met both of their eyes, wanting to transmit how serious he was. Of course, then he felt his face flushing with his next words.

"Both emotionally and..." He cleared his throat. "Physically?"

[ooc: Sorry for the late tag, RL swallowed me up for two weeks...]

Slowly, the realisation dawned on Poe. Neither Rey nor Finn actually knew what it was they were agreeing to, what this meant. Neither had had the life he'd had, growing up with parents that loved each other, experimenting and experiencing relationships as he became an adult, searching for that love himself.

"We can take it slowly," he said carefully, looking between the two of them. "Things don't have to change dramatically, it you both should always say if you're not comfortable."

He was certain that even if their feelings were new to them, they were true feelings at least. But in case they weren't, he had to be the one to be responsible. He didn't want to lose what he had already with them.

Finn had mentioned the physical aspect while Rey seemed to not understand how anything could possibly change. Poe couldn't be sure that either of them really understood, though. He looked to Rey first.

"Do you understand what he means by physically?" He asked her, then turned to Finn as well. "What do you understand when you say that?"

[ooc: You know its cool, real life always comes first <3]

Rey had not always been completely on her own as she grew up on Jakku. It had been thanks to a few king people living in Niima Outpost and its outskirts that she had survived. First, doing a few errands that earned her a little money, food or even water. Later, experimented scavengers had hired her to sneak into places they could not, teaching her about the job and what to do once you had a hidden treasure of scraps in your hands.

They'd helped her build herself a home and repair electronics.

Some of these people had families of their own, younglings that probably reminded them of Rey and encouraged their generosity. Rey had seen them together, loving touches and affectionate gestures, things that dragged out hassy memories of what she was sure must have been her own parents.

That's what she thought of when romantic feelings came to mind. Only now did she realize, that other things she'd seen around clearly had something to do with that too.

"Sex, you mean? Like in the brothels, but without credits exchange." It made sense. She'd heard of a traveller or two coming back because they had apparently fallen for the workers.

She looked down and her small hand in Poe's, he thumb tracing his knuckle, her attention then fell in Finn's hand as she repeated the gesture. She suddenly imagined them touching her, their palms on her cheeks, on her shoulders, her hips. She remembered how new it had felt, Finn's hand on her own that first time they met.

Would it feel just as unique? She knows she wouldn't disencourage him this time.

"Yeah, I'd like that. I'd like to know what that is like with you two." She looked up and met Finn's gaze, clear resolution on the way she smiled with confidence. "To connect with you emotionally and physically."

Everything that Finn knew about relationships came completely through word of mouth. Troopers barely had time to themselves and making connections was discouraged, to say the least. It's only through stories and rumors that he built an active understanding of intimacy. He had only come to experience some aspect of it after he'd defected and met Poe and Rey. Maybe that's why he hugged Poe so easily or reached out for Rey's hand again and again.

He fidgeted a bit then, slightly embarrassed at Rey mentioning brothels, but he knew she couldn't have been that sheltered in a place like Jakku.

It was still baffling to him that they were actually having this conversation. That they were discussing a relationship between all three of them, one that could be filled with the love he'd been denied up until this point in his life.

"I'll admit," Fin said after clearing his throat. "That I won't be sure of most of what to do at first, but..."

He glanced from Rey to Poe.

"I want to learn with the two of you. I mean, if that's what you both want, too."

"Yeah, sex," Poe replied, admittedly a little surprised that it was Rey who outright said it.

Maybe he shouldn't have been surprised. She had lived in a rough home, but it had still been a free home where people had the chance to live their own lives. Brothels, and other things, were part of that freedom. For some at least. Poe was under no disillusions about the complexities of selling your body as a commodity, in any form.

Finn... Had Finn even been paid for what he had been made to give his life for? Somehow Poe didn't imagine much leave was given to stormtroopers to find entertainment.

"We don't have to rush into that. And I can help you both, guide you..."

They could talk about this all day, Poe realised, but actions were a better way to learn. He leaned towards Rey, not hurrying but not lingering either, and pressed a kiss to her mouth, before leaning over her to reach Finn and do the same to him.

Was that the right move? His eyes darted between the pair as he pulled back again.

She had no idea of how it worked. Sure, Rey knew the basics. She'd seen others washing themselves in the few public bathhouse, the only source of enough water to properly wash yourself in Niima Outpost. And she'd noticed people relieving themselves from different types of needs, out in public. Never up-close, thankfully.

Now she wondered if that lack of education would leave her looking foolish.

But Finn spoke up, showing she was not alone, giving her more confidence. Then Poe did, easing the tension in her chest. She smiled, feeling like a fool indeed. Of course she should have counted on her friends to guide her, to walk beside her. No. Not just her friends. Her boys.

"I'd like that, yes." She told the both of them, feeling a little warm rise on her cheeks. A warmth, a blush that became more obvious as soon as she noticed Poe leaning in. Rey closed her eyes, still as Poe kissed her. It was only when he puckered his lips that she mirrored him, already taking notes on her first lesson. It was nice, made something in her chest flip. The same thing it did, to watch then Poe kiss Finn. All three of them connected. All three of them learning something new, sharing something unique.

She was suddenly in awe, watching Finn and Poe together. "So beautiful."

Before they parted ways, she leaned in, kissing Poe's scruffy cheek. She turned to Finn then and, noticing that the pilot was pulling away, she placed her mouth on the ex-Stormtrooper's.

Rey lingered a little longer this time, parting her lips slighting as she explored this a step further. She blindly looked with her hand, finding Poe's arm, travelling with her fingers until she found his hand while her tongue peeked past Finn's lips, carefully seeking entrance.

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